Although I had heard the word wonky used before, I didn’t really think it was an actual word… till I looked it up. And yes, it is a word. Sadly, it means crooked, off-center, askew, unsteady, and shaky. It’s probably the last word you want to hear from your eye doctor.
As background, I could never see well. My parents didn’t believe any of the eye screenings from school saying that I needed glasses. So I did the best I could without really seeing anything clearly. I sat in the front of the class and I listened intently because there was no way I could see anything that was going on. When you know nothing more, having never seen clearly – you never have the experience of knowing how bad your sight really is. You just go with the flow, accept the inevitable, and live with it. As a child, I adapted the best I could. Lucky for me at 7 years of age, my uncle took me to an eye doctor and I got my first pair of light blue, cat eye shaped glasses. My world suddenly turned so much clearer. I was amazed — there is just other adequate description.
Fast forward to 2002, I am wearing both contacts and glasses to see. I have low vision. My contacts are expensive and special order and if I tear one, it can take up to 6 weeks to get a new one. It’s a long process to get a pair that works – because of the high Rx and the 3 astigmatisms in my right eye. Yet I am so thankful they can make them. Without them I wear coke bottle type glasses and see, but not nearly 20/20. My eyes are -12.00 each and to put that in perspective, -7.50 without correction is legally blind. So yes, when I have my contacts and glasses off – I am more than legally blind. All I see without correction is foggy bunches of colors. I cannot see the big “E” on the eye chart, and I can’t even see enough to find my glasses. And without seeing, I cannot do many of the things regular people take for granted, like drive a car, read a book, watch tv, or even dial the phone.
So…. I had lasik surgery. I was a good candidate for the treatment. My eyes would not be guaranteed, and the risks were higher for me because of the high Rx. It was still a miracle. I cried on the way home because I could see. I could NEVER see without correction before in my life and now after a fairly painless and quick surgery, I could. It was definately worth the cost.
But now it’s 2012 and 10 years have passed. I have been wearing reading glasses for the last few, but recently found that my eyes don’t want to see far or near clearly. I cannot read the signs at the fast food restaurant and I cannot read the computer or any paperwork without my reading glasses and even then it’s hard. And the reason ~ my eyes went wonky!
For me specifically, it means that the eye that could see far after the lasix surgery – now can’t and it cannot help the reading eye. The reading eye has gotten farsighted but not enough to help the eye that sees far. If that’s a bit confusing, it was to me too…. but basically my eyes have reversed roles and taken ones they cannot succeed in performing. Both of them have decided to be farsighted – which my brain cannot deal with after 47 previous years of nearsightedness. And it’s crazy that they did that…. and scary. I am going to try some progressive lens glasses (which I will be wearing all the time) that should help – or I can get contacts and glasses again, or 2 pairs of glasses that I would keep needing to change. There is no easy solution.
For most people, the lasik surgery comes with a guarantee to fix your vision for life. That means you can have the surgery again, if necessary, to fix any issues you have as the years go by for free ~~ but my eyes were over the maximum when I had my surgery and were never guaranteed. But honestly, I don’t think there is anything that can fix wonky.